big city quiet: October 2013

October 18, 2013

the honest truth

I have, for many many years, had issues with constantly comparing myself to others: what they are wearing in comparison to me, what they do with their children, how they look, and how and where they live. When DJ was born I suddenly had these ideas of how we should be living, and what type of mother and woman I was going to be. I had set the expectations far too high, and what has happened is that I have exhausted myself, emotionally, mentally and physically.

I followed people on instagram with great style, or great careers, with beautiful families and homes, telling myself that I could enjoy them for what they are, but the truth is that I can't. I can't look at women who look amazing every single day. I can't stand to watch even my favorite photographers do what they do best. I can't simply enjoy a beautiful kitchen without thinking that mine is somehow inferior. I can't adore a beautiful photograph without wishing that I could take one like it, or that I had whatever silly objects were in the photo, whether it be a coffee mug, a placemat, a carpet or chair. It isn't about jealousy - it's not that at all - it's about my innate compulsion to compare myself to them, to compare my lives to theirs. And it's not healthy.

So as a start, I unfollowed 65 people on instagram, namely fashion bloggers, photographers and even some mothers. I deleted 30 blogs from my reading list. I cleared out blog posts from my drafts folder that talked about fashion, or home decor, or other bloggers and photographers. I have put many of these peoples lives up on a pedestal for so long, that maybe not subjecting myself to the images and stories will help me to gain some perspective. I'm aware that there are some more underlying issues at hand here, but this is a start.

I'm ready to take a big step back and re-evalutate, because I have not been living in the moment. I have been living up in my rats nest of a head for too long, and missing out on everything in front of me.

So, I'm taking a break, reeling in my online presence a little, and just being for a while.

See you soon.

xo,
rdg

October 15, 2013

Project Life 2013 • Week 40

Welcome to project life 2013 | week 40 (Sept 30 - Oct 7)

Like my previous weeks' spread, I added the dates to my photo instead of using a title card. I am absolutely loving the look of using large photos.

Here is the full spread with my monthly insert (details below)

left side:

Simple Design A with photos and card stock and a large photo of me enjoying a quiet moment with a cup of hot coffee.

right side:

Design D page, journaling on card stock and photos. Simple, clean, cohesive!

Insert:

As I do each month, when DJ turns another month older I do a mini shoot with him and include (4) 4x6 photos in an insert.

& don't forget to check out how I'm going back and documenting previous years!

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* project life is a product, system and a lifestyle created by becky higgins. in 2013, i'm creating spreads throughout the year. here are all of my pages from 2013 + 2014.

Project Life 2013 • Week 40

Welcome to project life 2013 | week 40 (Sept 30 - Oct 7)

left side:

Simple Design A with photos and card stock and a large photo of me enjoying a quiet moment with a cup of hot coffee.

right side:

Design D page, journaling on card stock and photos. Simple, clean, cohesive!

Insert:

As I do each month, when DJ turns another month older I do a mini shoot with him and include (4) 4x6 photos in an insert.

& don't forget to check out how I'm going back and documenting previous years!

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* project life is a product, system and a lifestyle created by becky higgins. in 2013, i'm creating spreads throughout the year. here are all of my pages from 2013 + 2014.

October 10, 2013

Project Life 2013 • Week 39

Welcome to project life 2013 | week 39 (Sept 23 - 29)

Another week of photos and journalling on card stock.

left side:

I used the Design D page and printed onto low gloss paper right from home.

right side:

Kept it simple again with the Design A pocket page, journaling on card stock, and a Paislee Press week in review card to sum up the week.

& don't forget to check out how I'm going back and documenting previous years!

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* project life is a product, system and a lifestyle created by becky higgins. in 2013, i'm creating spreads throughout the year. here are all of my pages from 2013 + 2014.

Project Life 2013 • Week 39

Welcome to project life 2013 | week 39 (Sept 23 - 29)

Another week of photos and journalling on card stock.

left side:

I used the Design D page and printed onto low gloss paper right from home.

right side:

Kept it simple again with the Design A pocket page, journaling on card stock, and a Paislee Press week in review card to sum up the week.

& don't forget to check out how I'm going back and documenting previous years!

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* project life is a product, system and a lifestyle created by becky higgins. in 2013, i'm creating spreads throughout the year. here are all of my pages from 2013 + 2014.

October 7, 2013

When will the judging stop?

It is not lost on me that there are millions of different ways to parent our children, and we all have our own reasoning or beliefs as to why we do what we do. We feed our children differently, encourage them to sleep differently, and our day-to-day lives entertaining and teaching our children most likely look quite diverse. And just as we have opinions on the best way to raise our own children, that quite likely means we have opinions on how not to raise them. I truly believe this is unavoidable, but what is completely within our control, is how we react to others with different beliefs.

Maybe it was the way I was raised, but I subscribe to the notion of saying nothing if I have nothing nice to say.

Over the weekend, a woman on Instagram who disagrees with my parenting style verbally attacked me. Some might say that my using the word attacked is exaggerating, but I disagree. This woman knows nothing about my child or my life, yet thought it was her duty to tell me that I am a terrible mother, and that what I am doing is child abuse and neglect. What is it that I am doing? I am attempting to sleep train my child so that we can all get a better nights’ sleep.

Some parents co-sleep with their baby, breastfeed on demand, and wear their children everywhere. Other parents’ feed their baby formula, and they sleep in a crib in their own room. One couple may be vehemently against crying it out, whereas others see it as necessary to growth and independence. I have my beliefs, and I stick to them, but what I don’t do is tear down others who don’t share these beliefs.

When will the judging stop?

Parenting is the hardest and most rewarding thing we will ever do. Our goals are all the same: to raise happy, healthy, well-adjusted children. Because my boy has been formula-fed since 8 weeks, that means I’m a worse mother than the one who breastfeeds her baby? Because he sleeps in his own crib, we’re bad parents? Because we have decided to sleep train our baby to sleep through the night, my “motherly instinct is failing me”?

When will the judging stop?

We should be praising one another for raising amazing children, lifting one another up for each difficult day that we get through, each smile that we are granted from our babies. Another mothers’ successes are my successes. We are all mothers and fathers. We know how difficult (and rewarding) parenting is. We need to stop tearing each other down if another couple doesn’t subscribe to our own beliefs.

But if you can’t do that, well, then just say nothing at all.

October 3, 2013

Project Life 2013 | Week 38

Welcome to project life 2013 | week 38 (Sept 16 - 22)

I'm posting another spread this week in hopes that I can catch up!

What I'm finding is that more and more I enjoy using more photos and then journaling on simple cardstock. Like my previous weeks' spread, I added the dates to my photo instead of using a title card.

left side:

Simple Design A with photos and card stock and the hello card from midnight edition.

right side:

I will admit that I am finally learning to embrace the Design D pages and have been using them more and more lately.

& don't forget to check out how I'm going back and documenting previous years!

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* project life is a product, system and a lifestyle created by becky higgins. in 2013, i'm creating spreads throughout the year. here are all of my pages from 2013 + 2014.

Project Life 2013 | Week 38

Welcome to project life 2013 | week 38 (Sept 16 - 22)

left side:

Simple Design A with photos and card stock and the hello card from midnight edition.

right side:

I will admit that I am finally learning to embrace the Design D pages and have been using them more and more lately.

& don't forget to check out how I'm going back and documenting previous years!

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* project life is a product, system and a lifestyle created by becky higgins. in 2013, i'm creating spreads throughout the year. here are all of my pages from 2013 + 2014.

October 1, 2013

Project Life 2013 | Week 37

Welcome to project life 2013 | week 37 (Sept 9 - 15)

I kept it really simple this week and used cardstock for journaling, and no core kit cards. I decided to stamp the date on one of my photos instead of using a title card, and really like how it turned out.

left side:

right side:

a friend of mine got married on sept 14 and I took her bridal prep photos - i had to include two of my favorites. the feet photo is from the ceremony, which took place in her best friends backyard. so lovely.

& don't forget to check out how I'm going back and documenting previous years!

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* project life is a product, system and a lifestyle created by becky higgins. in 2013, i'm creating spreads throughout the year. here are all of my pages from 2013 + 2014.